Irritated

I can't BELIEVE my Dad... I mean, he went and ordered 600 sticks of satay, and i'm like WTH?... Then goes and makes me as an excuse for getting a new car he likes, foisting his old car on me... I'd rather have no car than have his car, sure it's new flashy and powerful, but it's like driving a truck after practising for months on a normal car... Not only that, i'm so scared i can't judge it's width properly and end up hitting something... Argh... Haiz... Nvm... IN other news i applied to MDC(the SAF music and drama company) they haven't replied me, and i'm not really keeping my hopes up... Plus my training is almost up, i'm most likely to end up in a stay-in unit, which means, almost zilch socialising from then on... It'll jus be me, my guitar and some screaming seargeants*(*or put some other higher rank here) in my face all the time... (unless the seargeant is gay, then all solicitous socialising would be = me running away real quickly lots). Hmm, friday = put back M113 together day..., and saturday is road marshall day... I hope/pray to God that my application to MDC will at least be replied to, then i'd understand tt it was either my fault, or my chance... Not be left hanging like i am now...

Finally

i'm home... after, two guard duty in three days... I'm so tired i could jus collapse on the floor right here... I'm currently looking for a way to stay awake so i can collapse in bed tonight, and wake up feeling ok tmr... I've also decided i want to try put for MDC( the SAF music and drama company) so if anyone has any idea how to contact them, pls tell me... thx..

End of day

W/o the S haha... Yup, i passed my TPPT, tester was kind overly enthusiastic abt it... He calculated 8 pts, then jus handed me the thing... W/o even discussing what i did wrong... Cool sia... My licence should be mine in two weeks time... Should make a cool present haha... In other news... I take 1 day leave, but have to do RT... So i'll be in camp for the whole Saturday... Oh well... At least i spent the day usefully...

TPPT

Driving test is today... Hoping for the best, preparing for the worst, and jus boh chup the rest haha... ETA of results, 3 hrs and decreasing...

First day back in camp...

Haiz, before i even left for camp today i already felt tired... sian... 3 wishes that are mediocre yet hope to have....
1.) To have a nice long chat with Aunt haha, she's busy and i dun have anything to actually say to her..., but talking to her seems to make me feel better... and i have no idea y lol...
2.) To actually meet up with Jamie... or even Khaymar, lol, had fun chatting with them online, wonder if they're as personable face to face, though they ARE rather young... I'd like to know them better...(as friends, dun think so far u sickos out there!)
3.) To get more invitations by friends to play bball, or for me to get the motivation to start a jamming band.. jus for the heck of it... i mean i have the equipment, and the knowledge of ppl who might be interested... jus too lazy to get off my fat butt... Partly cos the equipment ain't strictly mine i guess... plus time constraints...

Oh well there they are, the whims of a guy who ain't abt to get what he wants.. lol at least not for a long time to come...

Hmm

I believe i have shown my point sufficient;y with the posting below... only one person... sigh oh well... tomake matters worse, this stupid blog is damn difficult to get into.. some problem with the website i think... Hmm well at least i had fun the past few days... What jamming with the worship team, goin out for a worshp meeting on saturday, then spending the whole day on sunday with church friends... Was kinda fun... Tho i still miss playing bball... Still was a rather enjoyable two days :) I didn't get first or second in the CO evening competition and tt still stings... Haiz oh well.. life goes on... My long week end is ending... and sadly, I still haven't gone out with any of my good/best friends...

OK stupid...

The blog page is weird... Had to try numerous times jus to gain access to my own blog... Anyway the reason y i haven't been blogging all tt consistently recently is due to one rather disturbing acknowledgement... There's really no point... I mean, the reason I put up a blog was so that i'd have a place to vent, maybe talk to friends about how i should solve some problems, and maybe even discuss how life is... But all that's been happening so far is the growing evidence that only one max three people remember this age even exists... Anyway end of story is, i had a rather fun day today... Really like music haha... If no one goes out with me tmr... Well, i'd take it as expected and frankly, the only thing i have in mind for tmr is song creating session all by my lonesome... Sounds rather introverted/anti-social to you? Well I honestly did try to find something to do on National day eve... Just that no one seems free or willing to go out with me... Oh well, at least i still have my music... And friends who are willing to talk to me online, if they do ignore me in real life...

Tired

That's about sums up what i feel over the past week... what with the SM1 tank exam, the performance tmr, the multiple identities as I/C in different aspects, the getting slapped with an extra guard duty that wasn't even my fault...And to top things off... Seems like there's a lot of stuff goin on this saturday for my church worship team... this has honestly been a really tiring week... The only good that has come out of this week is the fact that i passed the exam easily... Though many others failed.... Though i was too busy praying for a pass so i'd have less work to actually be proud of it. My brain hurts, my fingers hurt, my arm hurts, snd even my blinking leg hurts... Cos of a cut wound from rushing around like a chicken with it's head cut off... Haiz, anyway gonna rest and try to recuperate or jus use my usual method of willpower to sustain myself again... Done tt very often anyway... Only reason y i can pass my 2.4... Focus till ignore the pain/fatigue...

August....

It's august... Hmm, almost strange that I don't feel any different. It's always been a month of mixed blessings, with Hungry Ghost Festival, National Day, Teacher's Day coming up... I've been informed i might have to do guard duty on National Day or on the saturday two weeks after that... Oh well... Not like i have a GF to go out with or anything... I don't even go out with most of my friends anymore... Maybe is better this way... Might help to be self-sufficient in a world such as this...