Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy New Year

My this year's resolution.

To lose weight (sad but true)
To gain the courage to ask.
To lead a more God-filled life.
To progress mentally, musically, socially, and workability.

May it all not be in vain haha. God bless to one and all. Just want to wish everyone who reads this blog as well as all my friends a very happy 2006. May they encouter less strife in their lives, and more joy. Hopefully progressing more towards the Lord as well.

Hallelujah, I ORD this year! woohoo!

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Christmas

Here we Come a caroling, here we come a caroling.
Christmas is coming the goose is getting fat,
Please put a penny in the old man's hat,
If u haven't got a penny then a ha'penny will do,
If u haven't got a ha'penny then God bless you, God bless you.

;)

Haha, hmm Christmas is coming and I miss VJ choir now more than ever, haha. It's was pretty fun goin around Singapore's town area caroling and performing. Kinda wish I could be in a world class choir like that again. Sometimes I feel I don't deserve to have been in that choir. Everyone there was so great at singing, while I was only mediocre. Was really blessed by God to have gotten in. Hmm well, as somone once said. All good things must come to an end. Hopefully I'll be able to find a similiarly dedicated and talented choir when I go to uni. Praying hard for it. Though I like sports, like to play instruments and computer games, and starting to discover the wonders of the opposite sex, I think I'll forever be a Chorister in heart. Not a soloist or just a singer, but a group singer, jus cos it's so much more meaningful :)

Merry Christmas to one and all. God bless the world, for He has blessed the world once with His only Son.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Better

Hmm the theme of today, I've been better, but I have been improving the past few das. Maybe the X'mas season has something to do with it.. I've no idea, but whatever it is i'm thankful to God for it. Hm have a ton of songs to learn and prepare but it's the kind of songs i love. Nice pure songs, easy to sing and perfect to enjoy :)I'm really glad that my UNI friends have finished their exams, wish them all the best and hope they all have a merry merry christmas. Now they can enjoy to the fullest. Me on the other hand am stating to become really busy what with the parties ppl ask me to organise, the practices i have to go thro for caroling, backup singing, camp training as well as shopping/making presents. I like to buy present that people will appreciate, not something useless like clothing... I wouldn't choose the right type of clothing anyway... Hmm, if any of you guys reading my blog are 'thick-skinned' enuff as well as sensibles enuff, jus type in what u want for x'mas in my comments, and i'll try to get the more sensibles one... eh i not exactly a money tree.. also limited to time and money constraints. Hmm, but telling me would make my life easier, so pls do. thx ! :)

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Melancholy, anger and depression

There is a guy over at the window, he lounges on a couch as he reads a book that has oft been read. The chime gently sways, and melodies ring out, breaking his concentration. He stares over at the chime, seeing the day he received it, from someone dear to his heart. As he is prone to, he starts wondering with melancholy, the wistful days of illusion and the current aspect of his loneliness. How so often in his greatest time of need, his greatest enemy seems to be himself. Needing help but never seeking it, never good enough for whoever wherever, too arrogant to seek humility. Failure after failure plagues his mind. In an attempt at subversion, he dives back hungrily into his book, only to be brought back to the present by the beautiful death knell of the chimes. he realises there is no escape except fully reliving his nightmare. With a sigh, he settles down to think.

Years ago, a hopeful love, a painful rejection, and cowardly fear. The essences of a story of not-quite-love. The things he did for an illusion. Spending copious amount of time, patience, understanding, encouragement, advice and that ephemereal thing called love. Illusion is the first of all pleasures - Oscar Wilde. In the same way most pleasurable thing hook onto a person, it hurts when it's taken away. Cold turkey, self-denial, anger and pain, oh so much pain in life. No man is an island13, entire of itself - John Donne. The silence can be so loud sometimes, especially when you try to sleep, and the darkness seems to amplify the silence, when you seek to cloak yourself in it. Lies, hurtful words, evasions, empty promises and more pain, pain in the heart, pain in his mind. No he must not cry. This is Singapore, pain can be endured, pain lasts longer inside, festering, but it is better than not being an asian MAN. You're such a manly-man aren't you? - Martha, Who's afraid of Virginia Woolf I laugh at myself. Please God, help. A quiet voice cries out.

At illusion's end, then can healing start. A slow, time soncuming process involvin all the senses and mental faculties He has available. For every sight, every sound, every taste, every thought, brings the illusion to mind. Even a month in a foreign country does little to ease the heart's weary burden. Distraction, he learns with a fervent speed, with focus lent by desperation. 2nd fastest to learn driving, studying, piano, guitar, drums, and the violin once again. 'A' grade in tank mechanics, throwing himself into church activites, family matters, making money. Then second strike, a crack at home, where he lives. Whatever can go wrong will go wrong - Murphy's Law. More pain, a horizon filled with pain. Is there no hope? Please God, help me, please?

A regular job, he finds some meaning to life, his schedule means, less thought, more action, no girlfriend, no new friends, little time for old friends, almost none for close friends. He shares the tenth part of his pain with his friends, but he is still an asian MAN. Work, work is the cure, weariness, exhaustion, focus and more work, are miracles of mordern anaesthesia. The numb the mind, the heart..., the soul? Yet once again, lonelines settles in. Is there no one for me? A sudden strike, more pain at home, a hurtful father, a mother in fear, a dutiful son. God, help.

A peaceful minute, a restful second, he goes and sit by the couch, to refresh his mind, to run fromhis pain, with an oft read book. The chimes start to ring.

Monday, November 07, 2005

My history

I was suddenly put in mind of this piece of... poetry I wrote when I was younger. I haven't been writing poetry much recently... Mostly as I've not been able to reach the depth of emotion I felt back then. The Army really just feels surreal, and artificial most of the time. Anyway here's my old poem... Enjoy...
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Irony of the world by SLJ

I love the situations God puts me in,
I laugh at the irony even as
I feel tears coursing down my cheeks,
My heart clenching into knots.

To be tormented, again and again, on earth,
While trying to be an angel.
To be praised and looked up to,
While not even trying.

I understand the busy ant-people,
I understand the rejection of the inferior,
I understand the importance of family,
I understand the unintentional hurts.

But it still hurts when she says,' I'm too busy'
'There's someone else I like',
'My Mom has a day off, I'm not free',
'I'm sorry, I forgot, I'm going out with my friends.'

To laugh or cry,
To be angry or sad,
To demand or just accept,
Is my question.

I only know,
I'm depressed,
As i'm impressed,
By the irony of it all.

Friday, October 28, 2005

More quizzies... Haha, I know I'm lame...

HASH(0x8d0c2b0)
You're the good kind of friend, your shoulder's
alway ready for someone to cry on, and you know
when to talk and what to say to your friend's
problems. You have some problems of your own,
but as long as you can be of some help, you can
ignore your own problems for a little while at
least.


What Type of Friend are you? - Anime Pics! - I'll update answers soon...
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August,
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave
and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities.
Knows how to console others. Too generous and
egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty
for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily
angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous.
Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks
quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead
and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the
arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not
petty. Poor resistance against illnesses.
Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic.
Loving and caring. Loves to make friends


What does your birth month reveal about you? (read memo)
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You Are Romans
You are Romans.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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See! A blog post!

paladin
PALADIN

You are the Paladin, the
ultimate warrior for God. The Paladin
represents all that is good in the world.
Paladins fight evil at all costs. They do not
care for material pleasures of this world. They
have sworn their lives away to protecting the
innocent, avenging the victims of cruel
murders, and chasing after those who deserve
their punishments. The Paladin will do anything
to fulfill their duties. They will even
sacrifice themselves to save
another.

Color: White
Animal:
Dove
Gem: Diamond
Symbol:
Sword

Image:
http://www.deviantart.com/view/14400235/


Who would you be if you were a character in an epic fantasy? (beautiful pictures)
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Haha, I know I'm sorry, but I jus can't seem to find the words to describe recent events. When I do I'll put down a proper post yeah haha... for now watch me cruise through Quizilla.com haha

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Some nice pics...

I came across when venturing through snopes...

Firstly can u imagine, all these:






Are done in chalk? on a sidewalk? pretty cool yeah.

Some other nice pics I picked up from snopes.com, are of a field and of a forest.. haha sounds normal?... Just take a good look(BTW all pics here are realand not photoshopped.. at least the snopes ones aren't...):




I also browsed through one of my favourite websites for wall papers. The astronomy picture of the day archive






Aren't these pics great? They are pics from astronomers around the world. Taken from various astronomers on the ground or using their telescopes, it shows a beautiful universe created by God :) And in ending, isn't it just so poetical of the astronomers? The second pic of astronomy shows a nebula that looks like a giant blue eye. They called it, "Eye of God" :) that's it for now, enjoy!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Ok so i lied

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.


Sad if true...

This is the last one I promise

B

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)
And it takes something big to distract you!

somebody stop me!

Your Birthdate: August 29

Your birthday on the 29th adds a tone of idealism to your nature.
You are imaginative and creative, but rather uncomfortable in the business world.
You are very aware and sensitive, with outstanding intuitive skills and analytical abilities.

The 29 reduces to 11, one of the master numbers which often produces much nervous tension.
This is the birthday of the dreamer rather than the doer.
You do, however, work very well with people.

I couldn't help myself

Your Blog Should Be Yellow
You're a cheerful, upbeat blogger who tends to make everyone laugh.You are a great storyteller, and the first to post the latest funny link.You're also friendly and welcoming to everyone who comments on your blog.

i was bored :P

Your Personality Profile

You are nurturing, kind, and lucky.
Like mother nature, you want to help everyone.
You are good at keeping secrets and tend to be secretive.

A seeker of harmony, you are a natural peacemaker.
You are good natured and people enjoy your company.
You put people at ease and make them feel at home with you.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Worship

Hmm just had the children's day worship practice... i suddenly realise the feling I'd been mising these past 1 and a half year... It's working togther with musically proficient parts to creat a beautiful whole... Haha, it's sounds corny I know, but I don't know how else to describe it. being in choir since primary school, I've always worked with people who are as well trained or better trained than I am in music... And it always feels great to geta song moving when we all know our parts. It's not that we couldn't that that as a youth band, but it's much harder as we aren't as technically sound as the church band.. It jus feels great, I've missed this sensation... sigh... Now I wish I could play my instruments as well as those in the church band...

Thursday, September 29, 2005

Hmm today

Haiz, I'm starting to resemble an old man... At least in terms of memory... I had completely forgotten I was supposed to practice and learn the songs for this sunday's worship. Now I'm doing my old choir technique of cramming.. saturating myself with the music until I know it instinctively... Not really all that great a technique. I end up learning the song within a ridiculously short amount of time, but unable to properly anticipate it. Meaning I can sing the song, but not with full support, and I won't be able to do backup singing well(i.e singing a third higher etc to make the sound fuller). Hmm I feel a bit guilty over it, but right now nothing can be done... Just need to prepare for the next worship more efficently... But after listening to the songs, I believe I can sing them well in time... Cos they're kinda nice and rather dis-similiar to those anal choir songs... The melodies are nice, and doing the backup part shouldn't be too difficult( at least the simple kind..., where I just sing the lyrics in a single pitch, the key of the song, with small variations :P).

Okay, enough about music, in other news, I am on mc for these two days, mostly due to sudden eye pains... Found it hard to see earlier this morning, and promptly reported to the camp's medical officer. After 15 minutes waiting time and a subsequent 10 minutes of him painfully beaming a light into my eyes, he muttered something about them not being dilated enough, and told me to go home and rest. Kind of an act of God I guess, here I am rushing for time to study my music, and He sends me home to do it haha. Guess it's a sign... Will try my best :)

Sadly, I am finding it very hard to connect to Him nowadays. I used to be able to feel Him in the many aspects of my life. The times where His nudging would allow me to make rather eccentric but ultimately correct decisions. He has spoken to me but once, it was what you would call a 'religious experience' haha. I love Him so much, but I feel like I've betrayed Him times beyond count, and maybe that's why He now keeps His distance from me. I don't pray enough, I don't do enough quiet time, I don't evangelise enough. I spend my time chatting with my friends on MSN, reading my books, playing my games, and playing my piano and guitar. I realise I have to give up one of the things I love in other to know Him more, but it's a hard choice.

Music is my one true love, it takes me on journeys through my mind, and the studies I've made in it help me appreciate everything more(for those who don't know, I'm generally self-taught, I play the bongo(type of drums), guitar, piano, violin and saxophone, though none really well...)

Books, have been my companion since childhood, whenever I'm lonely, stressed, worried, sad, depressed, basically at the lowest times of my life, books have kept me trudging on. They provide a world where everything I know ceases to be, and I can put down my burdens for a while. It's my secret place, the place where no one else knows, except it isn't a place to me, it a whole world within my mind, as I read.

I also value my friends too much not to talk to some of them each day. Due my history of moving houses and schools, I've lost something like 50 or more friends several times in my life. Now each and every one is precious to me in their own way, and I try to keep up with them for as long as I can.(I say as long as I can, cause I'm not stupid either, there's any number of reason why NOT to continue a friendship) Friends can be the great listener, the ones to share fun, trevails and thoughts with. They know you well enough to cooperate with you, stay silent when you don't feel like talking, talk when you need someone to talk to, trust you( most people don't understand how important this is). Hmm, I'm at a crossroads once again, I just pray God will give me time to come to terms with myself...

Heh, Err, to those who are reading this, I'm not depressed or anything, I'm just naturally balanced on the crux of being introverted and extroverted. Call this a retrospective blog entry... I'm actually quite cheerful right now, managed to get a lot of rest today, and feel better than I did this morning... Gonna get down to proper tudying of my music now. God bless to all who read this yeah :) Will blog again... Hopefully sometimes soon... :D

Sunday, September 25, 2005

Monthly blogging

Hmm my blogging seems to be on a monthly basis now. Though a lot of things happen to me each month, I just don't seem to feel the need to blog about them all... Hmm, anyway I'm unofficially my camp's walking dictionary. Every hokkien peng, officer, and driver knows about me. It's my own fault I guess..., no one asked me to take part in that stupid scrabble in-camp competition... Worst part was me 'showing off' w/o even realising it. Most scrabble players know only the words but not their usage or their meaning... I won the competition not only knowing what every word I used meant, but by having a bigger vocabulary than the runner up. I didn't even think about it, I was just struggling to grab all the triple letter scores and triple word scores..., how was I to know I'd trump the runner up by 108 pts? I'd won the rest by a measly 20 to 50 pts... Now my officer is seriously thinking of dragging me back to work as his clerk gain... sigh...

In more recent news, there's not very much work to do in my camp nowadays.. Thank God..., a shutter door fell and now we are prohibited from accessing our vehicles except through excessive red tape... Which basically means we end up having too much manpower for very few vehicles...

hmm my friend is calling me to play dota... will post more in the near future... all the best to my uni and poly friends.. i noe studies are hard, but with God, you can move mountains and be in two places at opnce yeah haha.. God bless

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Slowly going insane

I believe I might be slowly goin insane in NS. I am starting to lose my temper at the small things, say things I don't mean to the people I have no grudges against. Haiz, seriously speaking, I have the impression that doing my National Service is slowly but surely sucking my lifeforce away. I really don't know what to do, should I stick to my original goals? Be a nice guy, a fully Christian one, and just take it lying down. Or be my father's son. I'm normally a nice guy who just likes to help out, but it doesn't exclude the fact that due to my father's work I have been needed to act as a leader to people very different and much older than me. I seldom just take insults or vulgarities well... Haiz, see how things go.. If i'm pushed too far, I'll just go into auto mode again.. that might be best...

Monday, July 25, 2005

Much ado about nothing

Hmm, it's been a while since I last posted... Nothing really much has been happening in my life really. I've just been really busy with camp stuff, church stuff and the stuff in between... Kind of like how a sandwich consists of the bread (camp stuff) the filling (church stuff), and whatever else you want to add (others).

Anyway, I suddenly feel like posting about how the silver screen depicts love in a standard way and how relationships are really off-kelter. It's almost always, guy and girl like each other mutually, but due to some obstacle or misconception, they don't get together... At least at first... Or at the very least some chivalrous thing the guy does for the girl he likes allows her to fall for him.

Part of me is relieved real-life isn't like that... Cos in real life, you don't always get the chance to do something as asinine as saving a beautiful damsel in distress or find love at first sight. Most of the time you have to woo a girl (I think) and win her over. (If this sounds disastrously wrong, forgive me, I'm the forever single). If wooing a girl never happened, most guys would be huddling beside a puddle waiting for a girl to slip and jump desperately to their rescue just to gain a girlfriend.

Yet another part of me wonders if real-life would be better if it imitated reel-life... Have a friend whom you like, and she likes you too, after a few paltry obstacles you fall madly in love with each other... Or after doing lots and lots of things, the girl knows without a fact you love her and falls for you... or some sappy crap like that, it'd be nice for a change, then nice guys wouldn't finish last, as they almost always do.

The world probably has something against the nice guys in life. They either aren't interesting enough, are too shy, aren't pushy enough, ugly, fat or unsuccesful (i.e poor)... The nice guy unlike the bad boys, have to be perfect just to get a girl, they must have the 5Cs(condo, cash, credit card, car and country club), look good, be understanding, while being able to defend the girl without being a wuss, However the bad boy is the renegade and all he needs is a smile and his bloody motorcycle. How typical of the world. They look for perfection but fall back on power and masculinity anyway.

So you'd think no! That's not true, a sweet caring guy would be preferable to the bad traitorous kind. And I'd say, that's odd, Russell Crowe has temper tantrums, lashes out in petty fits, yethas a wife who loves him... Bill Clinton had a 'I did not have oral sex with that woman' relationship and he's still together with his wife. Yet, yet, people like Tobey Maguire (vegetarian, avoids drugs and alcohol,enjoys yoga and cooking [http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0001497/bio] enjoys fame as spiderman) , and Chris Evans (nice, humble, also a vegetarian and enjoys fame as Johnny Storm in FF4) are both embarassingly single.

What's up with this world, well... Maybe you can tell me... Till next time, Talion out.

Friday, July 08, 2005

Sad tidings

For all TMC people, please pray for Jestyn and his family, his mom has passed away... Words cannot describe all the emotions I am feling right now... The thot that I should have/could have done more, keeps running through my head. It's irrational I know, but, I have the urge to call him and give my condolences or something... But that feels so stilted, and I know every reminder that his mom has passed away from sincere callers would just hammer things home and hurt him even more... The only thing I can do now which might help is by telling as many people as I can to pray for him... It's seems so small and minimal and the helplessness is making me uneasy... I'll cal him tmr, when things have settled down a little I guess find away to share his burden, without jolting a fragile state... words can heal, but it can also break... Hopefully God will guide him and me both...

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Who Am I?

These are the model ans given by my church haha...

I am the salt of the earth (Matthew 5:13)
I am the light of the world (Matthew 5:14)
I am Christ's Friend (John 15:15)
I am Christ's personal witness sent out to tell everyone about Him (Acts 1:8)
I am joined forever to the Lord and am one spirit with Him (1 Cor 6:17)
I am a new person. My past is forgiven & everything is new (2 Cor 5:17)
I am a child of God and will receive the inheritance He has promised (Gal 4:6-7)
I am a saint, a holy person (Eph 1:1, Phil 1:1, Col 1:2)
I am righteous and holy (Eph 4:24)
I am only a visitor to this world I which I temporarily live (1 Pet 2:11)
I am an enemy of the devil (1 Pet 2:11)
I am born again in Christ, and the evil one cannot touch me (1 John 5:18)
I am not the great *I am* (Ex 3:14, John 8:24) but by the grace of God, I am what I am (1 Cor 15:10)
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Hmm the past few days, have been kinda irritating actually. Duty in Pt kit ain't all it's cracked up to be. anyway sleepy, i'll blog again another.. cheerio

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Time flies...

After a record breaking month of 5 days of MC, 4 Guard Duties and 3 Recovery duties, it's suddenly July! I mean, wow, where'd the time go (ok so it went to sleeping, stressing out due to incompetent 'soldiers', and draining of blood from blood-sucking... ... ... somethings...).

Anyhoo, after giving tuition today, I decided why not blog? And promptly came up with a list of reasons for and against(thus forcing me to end up blogging anyway). Not dwelling on the irony of that, the reasons are...
1.)Too damn lazy (yes it's a reason!)
2.)Need to do my Disciple book(oops I did it all at one go when I couldn't stop myself earlier this week)
3.)Need to read (Wasn't serious about this one...)
4.)Need to touch guitar (Am cradling my guitar right now... so, out of point)
5.)Want to play DOTA!!!!(Don't HAVE DOTA, enuff said)
6.)Need rest for parade tommorrow! (I'm watching the parade, not participating in it...)
7.)Want to surf the net (Erm, blogging IS surfing the net...)
8.)Want to chat with msn friends (Friends normally pang seh me online anyway... got loads of time in between)
9.)Nothing to blog about ( Well, you do now...)
Lastly the best reason!
10.)Blog also no one reply or read anyway (That's why blog lah)

So here I am :P

Hmm moving right along, was rushing the whole day away, after camp went to beach road, then went to have a haircut then went to give tuition.. whew... Kinda tiring rushing from one place to another... but at least I'm healthy compared to the miserable one week where my good friend wsn't in Singapore and I just stayed at home rotting and sleeping and did more rotting... Was miserable and lonely... So I practised the guitar till my fingertips bled(ain't joking)...

(I know I'm really disorganised, I know and don't really care, just typing what comes to mind)

The past month has been really sickening (pun intended). For the uninformed, I had 3 guard duties in the space of one week, and fell ill immediately after. Yet I tried to help out a little in the church by going for the Youth Worship team practice. After that, I had to treat a friend to a birthday lunch :P. Then on Sunday pushed myself to little sleep to prepare for Father's Day. Went to Church, went out with a few friends, then alas has an asthma attack(I couldn't even identify it as such... haven't had one since I was 8...) Went to a doctor, and got 2 days mc. Rotted at home like a log. Then on the second day had the mother of all headaches, couldn't even see the handle of my own bedroom door, another 2 days mc. Friday went back to camp, saturday had guard AGAIN, was so stressed i couldn't sleep on the sunday after, and fell sick again on monday(1 day MC) had some kind of gastric flu... Then after a recovery duty last night, it's today with all it's rush in preparation for tmr's SAF day.. whoopee doo... Please excuse me while i attempt not to fall sick again.... adios and God bless all...

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Guang Liang Tong Hua Lyrics

童话 by 光良

忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

This is a fantastic song... the tune is addictive...

Mandrin lyrics


wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me

#
ni ku zhao dui wo shuo
tong hua li du shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le

*
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Repeat # and *

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

wo hui bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

meanin of the lyrics ( REAL VERSION )

I have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
I’m beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?

#
You came and tell me with the tears in your eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
It’s impossible for me to be your prince charming,
Maybe you will not understand,
After the moment when you said you loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer.

*
I’m willing to be, the angel you love,
In the fairytales,
Open my arms wide,
And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe,
Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending.

Everything is our beautiful ending.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

BGR

Was just thinking things over today... Didn't really have much to do other than just sit around and try to recover from my recent onslaught of illnesses... How can i say this without sounding sorry for myself?... Hmm, to put things simply, here I am, Bigger than most adults, old enough to be an adult in some countries, but still having no idea how dating works...

I'm going to be 20 soon enough, I'm 1.81m tall, and I don't even have to say my weight just for people to know I'm definitely heavier than most asian males. Yet, I've not known the difference detween going oout with a female friend, and dating. What exactly is a date? How do you make it obvious yet subtle that you're asking this certain person you like, that you want to date/court them? I mean in the Singaporean culture, it's kind of difficult to just state things boldly, yet a great deal of people don't correlate 'let's go out together' with 'I'm interested in you and I want to date you.' Is it really a blessing to be able to balance going out with both my male and female friends? I mean, I have no reason to shortchange either, since 'officially' I'm not attached and under no obligation to spend more time with either party...

Back to the topic at hand..., how do you just go about doin it? I know the two extremes pretty well, due the friends I have. The first of being a bachelor, and the second of having friends who have change bf/gf with almost the same frequency and reasons they buy a new set of underwear (cos it's embarrassing to get new ones in exchange for the old ones, until the old ones piss you off too much to ignore). I'm not really interested in either...

Unfortunately, I realise most of my female friends treat me like what the magazines call, the best 'gay' friend. Someone who is ok looking, won't embarrass them if they meet their friends, know won't come on to them strongly, and will be gentlemanly enough to foot the bill and all that stuff. (Yes I DO do all that, at least my parents taught me better, BUT I'm NOT GAY... Pigs.)

Haiz,... what to do? Each time I think about this topic or topics related to this, my self-confidence just takes a veritable nosedive into the marianna trench... I don't even know what I want, maybe that's part of the problem? I'm thankful for the girls who keep telling me, don't worry, you'll find someone someday, then I'd go home and laugh at the irony...(if you don't get the irony, well that's just too bad).

On a sidenote, I've finally sent out my University applications to Flinders University and University of Queensland. If all goes well I should receive an acceptance letter... If not then well, God may have other plans for me... Just see how it goes...

On watching Anger management, i realised a funny thing (ok funny to me), the psycholist said this, "There are two kinds of angry people, explosive and implosive. The explosive types are the ones you see at the petrol kiosk yelling at the cashier all the time, the implosive types are the ones that take flak all the time then SHOOTS everybody in the kiosk. You're the cashier." And I go and think... Yup that I am ...

hmm a long post... will post again some other day... Gott is mein hirst, mir wird ich mein geln :)

Monday, June 20, 2005

D I S C

PERSONALITY PROFILE ANALYSIS ON MR SHAUN LAI

Self Image

Mr Lai is careful and conservative in his behavioural style and rarely offends others intentioanlly. He is diplomatic and is often willing to compromise in order to meet the needs of others and achieve his team's goals. However, Mr Lai can be a stickler for system and order and by nature, will enforce procedure, policy and rules. There is a tendency for him to be conservetive and traditional in approach.

Mr Lai is very careful and tends to be a perfectionist in decision making due to his natural striving to get things exactly right. He is painstaking and accurate in all he does, paying a great deal of attention to detail.

Mr Lai has an inbuilt dislike for antagonism and confrontation. In his direction of others, Mr Lai is extremely dependable and will rely heavily on the facts and proven precedent.

Not normally explosive or easily triggered, he can bear a grudge and, whilst forgiving, Mr Lai does not necessarily forget.

The ideal work environment should include accomplishing tasks with others in situations where accuracy and concentrating on detail is vital. He not only sets very high standads, but also is very demanding and critical in ensuring that they are met.

Authority should be vested in Mr Lai's expertise and skills. The overall tendency is towards perfectionism.

Self motivation
Mr Lai prefers to lead others and to work in a structured, orderly environment and enjoys being part of a team of professionals and experts. He will seek the opportunity to extend knowledge in oprder to specialise, gain unique skills, power and the respect of others.

Job Emphasis
Specialist, professioanl or technical skills


Mr Lai prefers to work with people of similiar intellect, discipline, background or expertise in a structured, well defined work environment.

His behavioural style would reflect someone who takes time and trouble to ensure that very high standars are met and maintained by himself and his colleagues.

Describing Words
Accurate, precise, adaptable, detailed, sceptical, inquisitive, probing, systematic, logical, deliberate, analytial, suspicious, reflective, non-antagonistic, asks "how" and "why".

Behaviour in the Work Situation

In order to be successful in the work situation, Mr Lai does not modify his behaviour at all, and his work characteristics follow exactly the same pattern as those shown in the self image.

Mr Lai does not normally attempt to create any work "mask", but always allows you to see him as he sees himself.

Behaviour under Pressure

Compared with the self-image, there are some slight changes in characteristics when Mr Lai finds himself under pressure. He becomes marginally more communicative and sociable in pressure situations in an attempt to win his way.

It should, however, be noted that this will not bring about any major change in his natural characteristics.

General Comments

Stress
There are no stresses showing in Mr Lai's profile, which leads us to believe that he feels he can cope with the behavioural characteristics required within the job.

Motivators

Mr Lai is motivated by being given explanations, precise work details and ensuring that no sudden or abrupt changes take place which may cause Mr Lai to have to change direction. It is also important to give him reassurance and make him fel that his accomplishments are worthwhile.

Ideally, the manager wll be a democratic leader who takes time to explain the exact job/task requirement to a person, crosses all the T's and dots and the I's before expecting him to do the job.
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

sigh...

The first day i finish my attachment and go back to my original camp, and it's also the day i get so pissed i'm ready to chew bullets. I mean, c'mon, can't people get it into their dense skulls that we need to work TOGETHER in order to accompluish things quickly and painlessly? I mean, dammit, does the simple logic of TEAMWORK never occur in the peasized membrane they call a brain? Ok, maybe being in a choir has taught all the MDC people the neccesity and common-sense, of teamwork and civility. While being in a balls eat balls environment makes all those 'soldiers' with skulls the thickness of the Berlin wall believe, looking out for their own interests is the only law they abide to. And because of this chinanery, servicing that could be done in 1 hr takes 2, cleaning up so we can all fall out and go HOME, lasts till 6 instead of till 5.30pm. Then they have the intelligence to order others to do their dirty work while they stand around chit chatting, then complain that they always finish late everyday. You know what? I wish they'd just get a freaking idea... probably the reason why their brain needs 'Berlin wall' separation from the normal world. It a complete vacuum in there... 7hrs and already i wish i were back having a STRESSFUL day in MDC.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Bored and pissed



just doin this for fun.. not in the mood to blog actually... so yeah... add me if u want...

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Attachment

Hmm i'm currently on attachment to the SAFMDC choir... It's kinda cool being in this camp... Only need to book in at 9.15am and sometimes we even finish before 5.30pm... Plus we're in air-conditioned rooms all day singing... Wish I could be here longer.. I even found that I recognised a few old friends and acquaintances... The type of people who can at least enunciate their words well... So far so good, we've learnt 4 songs, two latin, one german, and one englsh medley. The latin songs are really nicely composed, while the german one attempts to strangle everyone haha... I'm really having a lot of fun singing and ribbing the twins Jonathan and David Charles Tay. I've known these two monkeys for a really long time, and it's kinda fun to be working with them in a choir once again... Really wish this dream wouldn't come to an end.. unfortunately the end is all too near... only two weeks left before i go back full-force to my old camp... With 4 guard duties to do over 3 weeks.. oh the joy... all of my weekends will prolly be sacrificed... ah well...

Thursday, May 19, 2005

3 Days of mc are over...

They were great while they lasted, went to the airport a total of three times... Don't ask why, it'd take too long to explain, lol... Hmm, managed to get loads and loads of sleep... Also managed to satisfy my craving for basketball... There're only so many times you can miss simple shots until you feel sated haha... Well, the reason why I had to go on 3 days of MC was because I had a really bad rash outbreak... It's not that I couldn't function as a normal person due to it, but more of the fact... I really needed a cool(as in temperature not atmosphere) and stressless environment for a while, I'd been sorely lacking these two criteria in my life for some time now... Well, alls well that ends well, I just hope my rash doesn't flare up again tmr when I go back to camp, that'd just suck... Will blog something interesting next week.. i hope... ttyl

Sunday, May 15, 2005

randomisation

Hmm nothing much to blog about..., been just trying to hang on in my work..., need to focus on other things just to survive... ah well..., prayer helps =D pray for me yeah... thx all haha

Friday, May 06, 2005

Rambulations...

I wonder what an anotational heuristic means... My friend and I were discusing sociology the other day, and the words fractual heuristic came up... Took us about 4mins disucssion to come to the conclusion that it meant something similiar to paradoxical beliefs or statements. Fractual meaning broken, and heuristic meaning logical(ok i'm oversimplifying it, by i'm jus too lazy to look up the official translations, lost my cheem-ology to english dic.) Then somehow anotational heuristic came up.. and up till now we still have no idea what it means haha...

In other language news, A friend and I were having a laugh over common proNUNciation errors in singapore(yes it's pronunciation u cretins, not pronounciation, nun not noun.) Like a doc fren who just didn't know what "flair-ghem" as he pronounced was... I had to laugh as I saw the word "phlegm", to the more Cheeneese blog readers, it is also pronounced "flem" yes that green/yellow/white stuff that comes from ur mouth when u have a bad cough. And to all hokkien pengs, it is pronounced 'ron-deh-voo' not 'ren-dez-vous'... And that soft long hollow thing you use to spray water with? It's called a hose not a pipe...*mutter* Not every long hollow thing is called a pipe, sometimes they are tubes, hoses, even hollow bars... And you don't 'carry' glasses, you 'wear' them... Another phrase that more sophisticated(note dripping sarcasm) hokkien peng use is 'menage a trois' I have no idea where they dredged up this phrase but it is NOT pronounced 'manage a kiosk'. KNNBCCB lah, lin nah bui, bui tahan...

Anyway to stop ranting... heard a rather funny joke on the radio recently.

A farmer had three beautiful daughters. All of whom were very precious to him. Alas as time would have it, all three girls were to go out on their first date, and coincidentially all on the same day! As the girls got ready for their outing, first came the first boy, he rapped,
"Hey, my name is Joe,
I'm here for Flo,
Gonna bring her to the show
Is she ready to go?"
The farmer replied, "not yet, come in, take a seat"

Then came the second boy, he rapped,
"Hey my name is Bill,
I'm here for Camill,
We'll go see the seals,
Is that a deal?"
The farmer replied, "not yet, come in, take a seat"

Then came in the third boy he rapped,
"Hey my name is Chuck..."
BANG! the farmer shot him dead...

(hope u understand, if not *hint* what rhymes with Chuck)

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Theory of accessibility

When you are free, no one else is, and when you have a tightly packed schedule, everyone wants to go out with you... If this happens another 2 more times I may have to ascribe this to the tenets of Murphy's law. The laws of the sad but true... It's kind of weird, i'm free 4 nights a week, and yet, 4 to 5 different people invite me out on the one night i'm unable to avail myself...

Currently nothing else to say, busy figuring out the chords to kotaro oshio's TSUBASA~you are the Hero, my fav song of the month... Super difficult and complicated but i'm addicted to it... Haha, God bless everyone yeah.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Sick

Sigh... after doing guard duty last night, i've fallen sick again... A lot of things were running through my head today... Why do people who should be happy feel sad? Myself included... Sometimes, I just want to enjoy myself, let myself feel free... Be a useless bum, drink if I wanted to, play if I wanted to... Yet, I can't change myself so easily... So many years of playing the big brother, the trustworthy friend, the dutiful son... It's become a second skin... Haigh, actually now that I think of it, I think it's jus the flu fooling around with my body's chemistry... Gargh, will post again when I'm well. Man, I feel miserable...

Monday, April 04, 2005

Don't know what to feel

This is my first day, the first for months, I completely let my guard down. I rest awhile, just feeling tired. So I do what I haven't for months. I sit in front of a TV and just watch a show. I stopped doing that years ago, when i found music and books to occupy my time. But I just couldn't this night, so I sat and just absorbed the sights and sounds. An hour of 'Ray' and I feel absorbed into my own life. I start to do what I hate to do, yet is an intrinsic pasrt of me. I examine and analyze everything I know, everything I see. As the show progresses I see more, the more I don't want to anymore, yet I can't stop. In the second hour, like a movie parallel with life, my Father walks in. He starts playing a drum to the music from the show, a metaphor for how he's been. Always there, always essential, yet, just never really there. Then like the deja vu that emerges from my nightmare, my mom steps in. With 2 sentences, the climax I sense all night, crashes down. An inadvertent move on my part, showing I can't hear what she says, the music is too loud. My bewilderment as the door crashes, my Dad jumps out and starts swearing at her in confusion. I stand there, and I don't know what to do....

Don't know what to feel...Can someone explain to me why I feel sometimes... Like everything I do is wrong? That somehow I can do no right?... I hate this feeling, but I feel useless everyday...

(BTW, this account may sound like a lit. text, but that's just my nature whenever my thoughts are disjointed and I feel just... empty inside...)

I'm sure jaes can beat me flat


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Sunday, April 03, 2005

One of my Fave poems...

Robert Frost (1874–1963)

Mending Wall

Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That sends the frozen-ground-swell under it,
And spills the upper boulders in the sun;
And makes gaps even two can pass abreast.
The work of hunters is another thing:
I have come after them and made repair
Where they have left not one stone on a stone,
But they would have the rabbit out of hiding,
To please the yelping dogs. The gaps I mean,
No one has seen them made or heard them made,
But at spring mending-time we find them there.
I let my neighbor know beyond the hill;
And on a day we meet to walk the line
And set the wall between us once again.
We keep the wall between us as we go.
To each the boulders that have fallen to each.
And some are loaves and some so nearly balls
We have to use a spell to make them balance:
"Stay where you are until our backs are turned!"
We wear our fingers rough with handling them.
Oh, just another kind of outdoor game,
One on a side. It comes to little more:
There where it is we do not need the wall:
He is all pine and I am apple orchard.
My apple trees will never get across
And eat the cones under his pines, I tell him.
He only says, "Good fences make good neighbors."
Spring is the mischief in me, and I wonder
If I could put a notion in his head:
"Why do they make good neighbors? Isn't it
Where there are cows? But here there are no cows.
Before I built a wall I'd ask to know
What I was walling in or walling out,
And to whom I was like to give offense.
Something there is that doesn't love a wall,
That wants it down." I could say "Elves" to him,
But it's not elves exactly, and I'd rather
He said it for himself. I see him there
Bringing a stone grasped firmly by the top
In each hand, like an old-stone savage armed.
He moves in darkness as it seems to me,
Not of woods only and the shade of trees.
He will not go behind his father's saying,
And he likes having thought of it so well
He says again, "Good fences make good neighbors."

The poem that caught my eye

Henry Constable
[My lady's presence makes the roses red]

My lady's presence makes the roses red,
Because to see her lips they blush for shame.
The lily's leaves, for envy, pale became,
And her white hands in them this envy bred.
The marigold the leaves abroad doth spread,
Because the sun's and her power is the same.
The violet of purple colour came.
Dyed in the blood she made my heart to shed.
In brief: all flowers from her their virtue take;
From her sweet breath their sweet smells do proceed;
The living heat which her eyebeams doth make
Warmeth the ground and quickeneth the seed.
The rain, wherewith she watereth the flowers,
Falls from mine eyes, which she dissolves in showers.

Slow weeks

It's been a slow slow time these couple of weeks.. nothing much to blog about.. i'm basically most concerned about my footrot... It had healed.. but recently i believe it has returned... sickening thing... Haiz, i really wish more friends would ask me out... I'm so sian most of the time... When ppl ask me out, they do so all on the same day, then I'd be slacking at home for all the other days... Ah well, can't be helped I guess... That's all for now.. will update when more intersting stuff happen...

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Mada Mada Dane

The many ways you acknowledge you are watching too much anime...
1.)Start saying phrases in japanese
2.)Wish you could do a 'Sharingan'
3.)Instead of 'What' think 'nani?'
4.)Have A japanese msn nick. (Ganbatte ne minna!)
5.)Think girls would look cute in a sailor uniform
6.)(i think of anything else right now, but it'll come to me... lol)

Anyway, I've been spending my time jus watching anime after anime recently... particularly like, full metal panic, aishiteru ze baby, prince of tennis, hunter x hunter and gundam seed destiny! Gundam is really cool, sadly most of it is liscenced so no more free viewings for me :p

The weekend has been rather restful, and i'm kinda looking forward to the week ahead... I pray that my hand will heal, it's been three weeks since my injury( for most of the people who don't know, a 75 kg weight fell on my hand, and there was a very slight fracture... I decided not to take mc cos I was on course, and couldn't afford to fail cos of low attendance). Anyway, it still hurts, but at least it works well enough for me to play a relaxed game of basketball :)

Quite happy with my bball performance today, nothing spectacular, but at least i managed to get the rebound rather frequently, and my accuracy for shooting was rather high.(at least as compared to normal) I didn't realise how much i miss bball and also how much i've already gotten over my bball craze. I jus enjoy being with my frens, and being a valuable part of the team, don't have the urge to try to be outstanding anymore. Never was anyway.

I was approached again today to join the church choir, i don't know how to ans... On one hand I really miss MY choir, in ACS and in VJC, cos they are both such spectacular choirs, it's hard to forget them. No disrespect, but i wonder if i'll feel the same satisfaction if I joined the church choir. The level of commitment is much higher, and the level of the choiristers, not as high. Plus i've relatively sure my singing has gotten worse... i've forgotten my focus... Haiz...

Well to cap things off for today, my friend Tony sprained his leg again, and i drove him home. Hope he gets well soon... Easter is coming, one day holiday soon... Well thank od for the small things in life yeah... Till my next post, I bid thee, sayonara haha....

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Nerd =D


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Yay, i didn't get 100% woohoo... I admire Ian he got 15%, jaesson got 95% tho...crud... :P

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Sorry everyone

Yeah, I know my blog has become a really boring place the past few months, haven't actually been blogging, but've been using cheap-skate cut and paste posts... :P

Anyway, I realise that as much as I try to deny it... I AM my father's son... I become depressed whenever I'm not actually working... Meaning, like my father, I AM a workaholic. Only difference being, I prefer to work cos i want to help people, my father does it for prestige and money... BUT i will brook no insult to my father! I am no saint, and materialistic as he is, my father is unbelievably generous... He makes as much money as he can, jus so he can give it away... According to him, he knows what it's like to be poor... So he sympathises and doesn't want to be poor anymore... I can't fault him for that.

Another thing... Can some of my friends evaluate my psychological makeup? I have no idea why I like turning conversations into jokes. It's not that I don't know how to be serious, and i know I like to make people laugh and smile... But, it feels weird that i try to act naturally, and always end up being seen as the joker BFG :P

That's all for now... And if for some reason Flora knows abt this blog or stumbles into it, I jus wanna say, it's nice to hear from ya again, however indirectly, take care and God bless yeah?

Saturday, March 05, 2005

whee guinea pig time!

What Design Fits U?
Shaun, the right design for you shows off your Worldly Views

It looks like you think globally even if you live locally. Whether you're a world wanderer collecting passport stamps or an armchair traveler flipping through travel guides, you've got an eye on the world beyond your zip code. But while you're on your own turf, you can still feel like you're in a far-off land through your decor.

To have your habitat embody your international interests, look to imported items and other touches with foreign flair. Try accents like a carved elephant statue, sushi set, gypsy folding table, or paisley mirror. With your worldview leading the way, your room will look out of this world!


What Are You Afraid Of?
Shaun, you are most afraid of not belonging

Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about whether others will love and care for you than many people around you are? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about being unneeded, unimportant, or even ostracized by those around you? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of not belonging.

It can be a real strength to recognize your fears. By being aware of the things that frighten you, you can assess whether fear is helping you or negatively impacting your life. For instance, a fear of not belonging may sometimes motivate you to take action in a positive way, like by being more willing to compromise than others.

However, fear's negative aspects can sometimes be more damaging than you realize. Living with fear not only prevents you from living life to the fullest; it can also have a significant negative impact on your energy, health, and your close relationships if not kept in check.


What Kind of Troublemaker Are You?
Shaun, you're a Determined Dissenter

You've got a plan for everything. Always thinking and plotting your next move, you follow rules when they work to your advantage, but you don't mind molding or refining them to better suit your strategy. Your drive, smarts, and focus make you a natural leader who people are usually eager to follow. Simply put, you inspire with your determination.

Whether you start a petition to put an end to mystery meat in the school cafeteria or protest an unfair test curve, you find that you're happiest when you're on a mission that you believe in. And if you find (or make) a little trouble along the way, well, it was probably part of the plan in the first place.

What's Your Email Personality?
Shaun, when it comes to email, you're an Entertainer

If art mimics life, so too, does email. In fact, email is how the world sees you online, so why not put your best foot forward? Chances are, you're not satisfied with sending an email unless it sounds just as clever and witty as you are in person. And who can blame you?

Truth is, your friends would probably call your warm, outgoing personality your very best feature. You're the type who loves a good party and chances are, your social calendar is just as packed as your inbox — whether traveling around your neighborhood, or to different cities, and countries. You're a worldly sort, but just because you're far away doesn't mean you don't have people to make plans with. But who has time to sort through all that junk email when you're on the road?


What's Your Theme Song?
Shaun, your theme song is Back in Black!

You're a hard-core guy who knows what he wants and intends to get it. That's why your theme song is "Back in Black." Whether you're pumping iron, shooting pick-up hoops, or rounding up the boys for a night of havoc, AC/DC's metal classic is the perfect tune to get you fired up and blow your speakers out in the process. Your friends might think you're a little reckless sometimes, but you know where the limit is. If you're the loudest one in the room, or spill someone's drink with a fearless air guitar, it's nothing to be ashamed of. What's fun without a little mayhem thrown into the mix? So grab something leather, play drums on your desk, and yell at the moon. You've got some hell to raise and head banging to do. Let "Back in Black" accompany you to the edge and back.

Monday, February 21, 2005

Colourquiz

Your Existing Situation
Works well in cooperation with others but is disinclined to take the leading role. Needs a personal life of mutual understanding and freedom from discord
Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and to stand out from the rank and file. This subjects him to considerable stress, but he sticks to his attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Finds the situation uncomfortable and would like to break away from it, but refuses to compromise with his opinions. Unable to resolve the situation because he continually postpones making the necessary decision as he doubts his ability to withstand the opposition which would result. Needs the esteem of others, compliance with his wishes, and respect for his opinions before he can feel at ease and secure.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Insists that his goals are realistic and sticks obstinately to them, even though circumstances are forcing him to compromise. Very exacting in the standards he applies to his choice of a partner.
Your Desired Objective
Longs for sensitive and sympathetic understanding and wants to protect himself against argument, conflict, or any exhausting stresses.
Your Actual Problem
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond his capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. He attempts to escape into a substitute world in which things are more nearly as he desires them to be.
Your Actual Problem #2
Greatly impressed by the unique, by originality, and by individuals of outstanding characteristics. Tries to emulate the characteristics he admires and to display originality in his own personality.

Elementalism?

If you are near a water dragon when its sad, it will begin to rain...
Your a water Dragon! Congrats! Like ice dragons,
you are extremly powerful, but show it more
often. You are a leader, and like to speak your
opinion. AND, you are charming, swift, and
great at dancing, you enjoy getting stuck in the
rain, playing with friends, and swimming
anywhere! Wat-ER you wating for?


What elemental dragon are you?
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Saturday, February 12, 2005

Can u feel the boredom? More tests~!

The Multiple Intelligences Test
Six Kinds of Smart
Shaun, you're smartest when it comes to visual/spatial intelligence

Others may take their environments for granted but not you. Because of your visual/spatial intelligence you really see the world around you. This strength often helps you better appreciate the beauty and detail in everyday things. From shapes in nature to the structure of a fine automobile, a countless variety of things hold your interest.

Having this particular kind of heightened awareness can allow you to form accurate mental images of existing places and objects. In extreme cases, one might call this strength a photographic memory. Being visually/spatially intelligent also means that you likely have a vivid imagination that can be put to use in a variety of creative or professional endeavors.
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Shaun, your Super IQ score is 131

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.

The way you think about things makes you an Intuitive Investigator. This means you have multiple talents and can do anything you set your mind to. You're able to detect numerical patterns easily and are able to grasp the true complexity of the world, both in its details and in a more abstract form. You've got a sharp logical mind and are adept at using words to get even a difficult point across. The combination of all these things makes you truly brilliant.

How did we determine that your thinking style is that of an Intuitive Investigator? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you an Intuitive Investigator. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.
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The Just Between Friends Test
Shaun, you should pick your Funny Friend

That's who you should share in your holiday cheer with! Seriously, there's nothing like spreading good tidings with the person who just naturally brings out your sunny, and funny, side. Who wants to be dour and sour? Your upbeat attitude and appreciation for the lighter moments in life is what seals the deal for you and the resident comedian in your life. You know who we're talking about — the friend with the one liners, the quick wit, the insightful commentaries on life's absurdities — the friend who can make you laugh even when they're poking fun at you.

But even if they are telling a joke at your expense, you know you can count on them to keep you young at heart, laid back, and fun loving. When it comes down to it, would you want it to be any other way? Some people spend their lives trying to find the silver lining in passing clouds, but this comedic companion points it out time and time again.
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Tickle's Original Inkblot Test
Reveal Your Subconscious Mind
Shaun, your subconscious mind is driven most by Imagination

You have a deep desire to use ideas to change the world around you. This drive influences you far more than you may realize on a conscious level.

You love to brainstorm and imagine new possibilities. The world is a fuller, richer place because you can contribute new ideas to any experience. Your natural curiosity inspires those around you and encourages them to come up with ideas they wouldn't have discovered without your help.

Your psyche is very rich; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
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What's Behind Your Emotions?
Why You Feel the Way You Do
Shaun, your emotions are triggered by your underlying belief in Compassion

In other words, your uncompromisingly compassionate nature directly affects how, and how often, you experience certain feelings.

For example, your test results indicate that you're most fulfilled when you can lend a helping hand to those who really need it. That factor is directly related to your fundamental belief in compassion and the range of emotions it triggers.
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Shaun, your lucky charm is a Lucky Penny!

Stop looking to the sky to thank your lucky stars. You need to keep your eyes on the ground because lucky pennies are the good luck charms that could change your life.

Starting now, you should see pennies in a whole new light. They're not just copper pieces destined to sit at the bottom of your coin jar. They're neglected pieces of American currency that carry with them a small piece of history—a history that has fatefully wound up in your hand.

But before you go diving for every Abraham Lincoln you see on the street, remember that only heads-up pennies are considered lucky. If they're minted the same year you were (born that is), even better. But a penny with a hole in it is the luckiest of all. Wear it around your neck as a charm and watch your fortunes change. Tossing your lucky penny into a fountain could make your wildest wish come true. And if it doesn't, it's just time to find a new lucky penny.
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What's Your Signature Color?
Shaun, your signature color is Pink Chiffon

There's nothing saccharine about you — your sweetness is one hundred percent natural! A gentle, thoughtful romantic like you must be paired with a color that's soft and warm — but still has a subtle sophisticated sheen. That's why Pink Chiffon is the perfect color for you! You're probably known for making the most of every situation and trying to see the best in people. But while you may be cheerful and innocent at times, you're nobody's fool. You may see the world through rose-colored glasses, but you can still see, after all.

While you make wise insights time after time, it's probably your good nature and perpetual optimism that are what you're known for and what make you a joy to be around. Even those who sometimes make fun of your Pollyanna-like proclamations will turn to you when they need a friend and some cheering up. So keep pink, Chiffon. With you around, the world's a better place!
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What's Your True Color?
Shaun, your true color is Yellow!

You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you. It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it. The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too). Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you. Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!
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Who's Your Type?

Your type is the Girl Next Door

Cute, fun, and sweet, your ideal gal is just a stone's throw away — she's the Girl Next Door. She's Sandra Bullock, Doris Day, and Meg Ryan all rolled up into one. Naturally pretty rather than glamorous, she's unpretentious and generous. She loves animals and children, and is great with both. You're attracted to her strong values and traditional ways. Although she demands a lot of respect, she's not particularly high-maintenance. Her ideal date is more likely to be dinner and a movie than heading out for a night on the town. She's careful yet spontaneous — a little bit of the Guy's Girl, a smidge of Sorority Sister (the nice kind), and just a hint of the Hippie Chick. But she's got an appeal that's all her own, which is why you can't stay away. Her winning smile, bright eyes, and loving nature make you want to hold on tight and never let go.
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What Type Are You?
You are a Goofball

You are one lucky Goofball. Why? It's a known fact that laughter is the way to any girl's heart, and a great sense of humor is your defining quality. Not only can you make other folks laugh, but you can laugh at yourself — there's no bigger turn-off than a guy who takes himself too seriously. Your lighthearted attitude reveals how comfortable you feel about yourself. Women dig that kind of self-confidence and security. Face it, you're a people magnet — everyone's favorite friend. There's never a dull moment with you nearby. Excitement and laughter are what you bring to the lives around you, and it makes everything a little bit brighter, which is no small thing. After all, life is too short to spend it without a smile.
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Which "Friend" Are You?
Shaun, you've got a little bit of Chandler going on!

Could you be any more like Chandler? The most lovable wiseguy around, you've got more than a little Bing inside you, don't 'cha? Front and center in your Chandler-ness is that unstoppable wit, keeping everyone in stitches (or at least deflecting uncomfortable situations). And like the Chan-Chan man, you'd never leave your pals out in the cold. But your generosity is so inconspicuous that people often don't even notice it.

Romantically, a soft, sweet, heart and charming, insecurity rule. You might, however, be held back from love by that nagging little fear of, well, growing up. Ya think? But, like the adorable Mr. Bing himself, it's just because you care so much and don't want to let anyone down
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The Chakra Test
Understanding the Energy Centers of Your Body
Shaun, your most positive energy is flowing from your Seventh Chakra

This chakra is located at the crown of your head and represents the seat of the soul. The seventh chakra is associated with your connection to your spiritual self and to the divine. In your case, this chakra appears to be clear and unblocked so that positive energy can flow from it freely. Radiating positive energy from your seventh chakra indicates that you've cultivated higher wisdom concerning the important life lessons associated with this energy center. You're apt to feel a greater bond with the spiritual world. You're probably also more able to live in the moment than most other people are. The seventh chakra is the chakra of highest spiritual evolution.

Whether they're allowing positive energy to flow or preventing it from doing so, all seven of your body's chakras contribute to how you are feeling on a day-to-day basis. When they're balanced, you feel energized and at the top of your game. When they're unbalanced, you may feel tired or 'off'.

Friday, February 11, 2005

Battery of tests

Shaun, the best Zodiac Match for your personality is Libra

Libra, the Scales (September 24 to October 23): This idealistic yet easygoing partner is just your type. Initially, a Libra partner may catch your attention with their elegant charm and attentiveness during courtship. But as you get to know them better, you're likely to be even more drawn to your Libra's appreciation for beauty and fairness, as well as their peaceful disposition. People born under this sign are known for being romantic partners who have an excellent ability to build and grow an egalitarian relationship. Librans may seem to be a bit lazy to you at times. However, their love of pleasure can be a benefit, too — one that can roust both of you from falling into boring relationship routines. In the bedroom, you'll likely find the Scales to be both creative and driven, with a significant sexual appetite. In general, Libras are flirtatious, talkative people who are almost always open to amusing distractions.
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What's Your Sense of Humor?
Shaun, your sense of humor is Banter

Like a king of pinball, you've made an art of playing off of people because your sense of humor is all about banter. Like many great comedians before you, a roundtable of friends, or a roomful of targets, is the catalyst for what makes you laugh. It brings out the wit — and sometimes the nitwit — in everyone.

It's quantity, not quality that matters as you and your friends alternate outbursts like the riffs of a hit single. Here's the bottom line: You're a social creature. Other people's inside jokes even strike you as funny. You manage to gravitate toward people who can appreciate a tall tale and you've probably never hesitated to fire off a zinger — even in a roomful of strangers. So keep it up with your bantering methods. Laughter, after all, keeps the world going 'round.
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Which "American Idol" Are You?
Shaun, you're a Trained Professional

The stage. The big screen. The boardroom. Wherever your sights are set, you're ready for the spotlight. Confident and talented, you wouldn't think of going for the big time without doing the proper prep work first. And it shows in your polished performance and dedicated attitude — all of which makes competitors respect you and fans want to be you.

You're an enthusiastic competitor who doesn't mind putting in the extra hours to sharpen your skills. You probably learned that there's no substitute for hard work whether you're trying out for a team, a band, a job, or American Idol. So keep on practicing. It's sure to take you to the top in no time!
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What's Your Superpower?

Holy smokes, you've got X-RAYVISION! Your answers show a keen sense of insight, coupled with a piercing mind. Okay, so you may not be able to see through brick walls — not yet, anyway. But you probably enjoy looking beneath the surface of things and reading between the lines. Your X-ray vision lets you see things others can't, making you good at reading people's motivations, solving mysteries of all kinds, or maybe just finding misplaced car keys. You've got the gift, so if you haven't started using it, it's high time you did. Just think of the benefits: You could really start undressing people with your eyes. Winning lottery tickets and grand prize soda-bottle caps will be effortlessly revealed to you. So start practicing! All superheroes know that developing your powers begins with mental training. To start honing your X-ray vision, try looking for the hidden meaning in things. Read old English poetry. Do crossword puzzles. Think metaphorically. Once you've trained your mind, you'll be ready to instruct the eyes. Start with gauzey fabrics, then move on to semi-transparent glass. Keep at it, and you'll be seeing through concrete slabs in no time. Good luck!
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Shaun, based on your responses, your top career area is Math and Science

Careers in this field often demand that you enjoy thinking analytically, have strong reasoning skills and the ability to approach a problem from a variety of angles. You're not content to just question — you're motivated to test your ideas to see if they are right. Even if it's not a common perception, people who enjoy the Math and Sciences are highly imaginative and intuitive.
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Shaun, you are Balanced-brained

That means you are able to draw on the strengths of both the right and left hemispheres of your brain, depending upon a given situation.

When you need to explain a complicated process to someone, or plan a detailed vacation, the left hemisphere of your brain, which is responsible for your ability to solve problems logically, might kick in. But if you were critiquing an art opening or coming up with an original way to file papers, the right side of your brain, which is responsible for noticing subtle details in things, might take over.

While many people have clearly dominant left- or right-brained tendencies, you are able to draw on skills from both hemispheres of your brain. This rare combination makes you a very creative and flexible thinker.

The down side to being balanced-brained is that you may sometimes feel paralyzed by indecision when the two hemispheres of your brain are competing to solve a problem in their own unique ways.
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The Classic IQ Test
What's Your IQ?
Congratulations, Shaun!
Your IQ score is 133

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Facts Curator. This means you are highly intelligent and have picked up an impressive and unique collection of facts and figures over the years. You've got a remarkable vocabulary and exceptional math skills — which puts you in the same class as brainiacs like Bill Gates. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

CNY

Yup kinda of a late posting, but do I care? Of course not. Of late I've been feeling and acting weird, to all those who want to scold me for being so, go ahead, I don't really give a damn, but if u wana say it's a good thing, I'm all ears yeah. Anyway, I got kinda f%&^ed by my officer, again, wasted 1 day of the 5 days of leave I've alotted to myself this year. As for why, it's simple, I want to save my leave for ORD next year, and my officer just because HE wants to take a free off day, happily tricks half of us into taking leave, and giving the recalcitrant one OFF... (Cos by SAF directive, there must be at least one senior personnel on hand if anyone is there at all)

Do I feel cheated? Damn right I do. Haiz, at least I discovered something about myself... I thought I had changed from my youger self. But the recent events have caused me to realised I haven't changed quite as much as I had thought. It's sometimes so liberating just to be violent. Although I haven't quite exploded in a longer time than I used to(once every 2 yrs, it's been, 5 yrs...), I'm coming closer and closer to it. Haha, the last time I was so angry,..., I managed to break a wall, I can't remember if it was a false wall, or an old one or something... Just remember feeling good at making a fist sized hole... Just as it feels good now, to go to the buoy I use as a punching bag and make it fly, even with the 5 bricks I tied to the bottom of it. Anyway I also realise it's better to fel angry than to feel depressed, at least when you're angry you get things in motion, you push yourself to do something... I haven't forgotten the feeling of being angry, and I like it. Irritation is no use, despair is no use, calm is no use, only anger and happiness is useful. One for getting stuff done, the other to enjoy.

So fun being violent.

Thursday, February 03, 2005

Need

I need the caress of my God this night,
I need the wings He gives to take flight.
I'm beaten by the lightning out of the clear blue,
Weighed down by the mountains of darkest hue.

I reach out only to be beaten back again,
It hurts so bad, hit, again, again.
How do I break from my quandary?
Or do the chains hold me back, solitary.

Music, just a temporary song,
Studying, a fruitless endeavour,
The tube, from reality sever,
Reading, wishing for a book a million pages long.

I need the ear of my soulmate,
The advice of my Lord,
A ticket past fate,
A treasure to hoard.

Sometimes I have everything I could ever want,
Sometimes I have nothing, except myself, to taunt.

Sometimes I smile,
At the beauty the Lord, lets me see.
Sometimes I smile,
With the mask to hide my plea.

I have need,
I have myself,
I have my problems,
I have my Lord,
Silent as He is.

My incommode is mine,
My sadness is mine,
My obligation is mine,
My life is My Lord's.

(it's incomplete, but i will stop here)

Friday, January 28, 2005

Was Bored...





You Have A Type A- Personality



A-





You are one of the most balanced people around
Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want
You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you.

When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back
Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love!
You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds



Handwriting analysis

Didn't have a real post in mind.. so jus putting this here...
******* The Analysis Starts Here *******


For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Shaun has left some white space on the left side of the paper. Shaun fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion moving the entire writing rightward as he moves down the page. If this is true, then Shaun has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on.(Really?...) The right side of the page represents the future and Shaun is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Shaun is leaving the past behind and moving on to what he perceives as an exciting and enticing future. (true enogh i guess)


Shaun exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although he may not intend to deceive or mislead, he blows things way out of proportion because that is the way he views them. He will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of his material world. Shaun allows many people into his life because he is accepting and trusting. He is sometimes called gullible by his friends. That only really means that he trusts too many people. Shaun has a vivid imagination. (hahaha, oh man...)


Shaun is very selective when choosing his inner circle of friends. He excludes all but a few from his fellowship. He limits his intimate friends to one or maybe two people. He tends not to trust the masses of people but chooses only a few to trust.
(lol did this thing just contradict itself?... see abv passage...)


Shaun is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time. (hmm I AM sarcastic... but been cutting down nowadays...)


Shaun is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem.(according to most friends i have LOW self-esteem...) He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts.(Of course what, how do you work if you have nothing to work towards?...) He finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Shaun basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.


In reference to Shaun's mental abilities,(i can read ur mind......) he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Shaun slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project. He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Shaun can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. (yes i am spock!)


Diplomacy is one of Shaun's best attributes. He has the ability to say what others want to hear. He can have tact with others. He has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Shaun can disagree without being disagreeable.


Shaun is secretive. He has secrets which he does not wish to share with others. He intentionally conceals things about himself. He has a private side that he intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in his past.


Shaun will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Shaun believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride. (bad bad stuff... pride)


Shaun uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person(i dun think so...) who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional.(i dunno abt this, but i noe there are people who think i'm happy all the time, jus cos i smile all the time...) He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Shaun does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise. Shaun will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally. Shaun is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?" (emergencies yes, last minute backstabs... i'm only human, of course i'll lose my cool...)


People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Shaun doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

If u want you can try it yourself here or go to http://www.handwritingwizard.com/

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Guilty

as charged... Haiz, sadly i've been really sick the past week or so... The first day I was sick I still managed to go to the Helping Hand, but after much internal debate and discussion with my parents, it's been decided i'll go and help out only after i'm well... I feel guilty every night I'm at home, resting... Though I'm coughs wrack my body, I still think of goin there, jus to help for a few hours... Hmm, I wonder if this is similiar to 'survivor's guilty'. It's a trait some survivors display when they are one of very few to survive a cataclysmic event or holocaust. Most of the time these survivors believe they should have expired with their family or friends or at least that they are too lucky. Similiarly, I feel sometimes that I'm too lucky, so I feel the urge to act, to just go out and help other people, regardless of their age, race, religion or gender. It annoys some people I know... I'm not saying I'm a saint, or even a good samaritian... It's just a compulsion that grabs hold of me once in a while... I remember there was once, where on the same day, in anger or spite(i can't rightly remember) i pushed a guy off the stage, yet later in the day i saved a small boy from being hit by a car... At the expense of my sch bag being run over by said car... Could have been me :P... Maybe I'm too self-rightous, thinking of myself as better, bigger than others, thus having the responsibility of defending them.. Who do I think I am? Spiderman? Bleah, more like Mr Bigheaded Pig. Sigh... I wsih I could do more, yet my friend throws my words back in my face, 'Even Superman can't be everywhere at the same time...' Yeah whatever, fine, I'll just sit here in front of my com, and pray to God to get well soon so I can go out and save the world somemore haha... K, feel better after spouting nonsense... Will be back to post in... Dunno, when i feel like it... Oh, kudos to those who come to my blog to view it, sry for the scattered and irregular posting, won't promise to post in a timely and constant way, jus not my style :D, ciao amigos

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Here comes

a doozie of a post. Hmm, i went to Helping Hand almost every weekday this week. Been Kinda fun and fulfilling to do something selfless I guess... Hmmm, managed to make friends with the 'manager' there and some of the uncles staying there. Just chit chat with them as I helped out in packing, labelling and moving the stuff that came in. Interesting to note the diversity of opinions and thought patterns of the different people there. Like the engineer uncle who was there only once but had a tendency to encourage my cousin and I at the oddest times and in the weirdest of ways, haha. Then another of the uncles who managed to sway me over to his cynical view of why the Singapore govt is being so generous and helpful in light of the Tsunami disaster. Hmm the different reactions of people was also interesting to note. Some were happy to help out(i.e me), others felt a sense of duty, a few were there due to coercion, etc etc. Only thing that made me irritated/disgruntled about the time is spent there is the items some people had the cheek to donate. USED underwear with stains on them, skirts with holes the size of a soccerball, a single shoe(not a pair), a comb, these are some the examples of items people donated. Rather appalling don't you think? Oh yeah another thing I noticed abt the clothes donated... I feel there should be a box labelled 'Unisex'. The sheer number of t-shirts and jeans donated is one thing. The best part would be the fact that all these shirts and jeans would've fit both men and women, posing a dilemma during sorting... Ended up throwing most them into the Men's boxes tho, Womens' boxes already outnumbered the mens' 3 to 1... Anyway for those interested in goin to the Helping Hand to help any day of the week, they open at 10am everyday and close around 8.30-9pm. They'll be opening the place for packing until february. It's located really near to Kovan Mrt Station, jus walk in the direction of the burgerking at Heartland mall from the Mrt station and continue until you see it.

Ok enuff said abt the Helping hand, recently found 2 old poems I wrote sometime back(actually most of my poetry is created due to failed songs, venting of emotion, on a whim and cos of a girl, sad i noe)(btw when i mean a girl is the same girl in all the poems haha, sadder still). Well here goes...

The Feeling
Did u ever get the feeling,
Of something not quite right?
Or that you might be preparing,
yourself for a fright?

That in the darkness an evil prowls,
Stalking, closing in inch by inch.
You tense ready to flinch,
Anticipating the sinister growl.

Or when u wake,
In the dead of the night,
Robbed of your sense of sight.
Feeling watched, you start to shake.

But give praise, give thanks
That you feel this in darkness,
Rejoice, that unlike the select few,
You do not feel this while basked in the light.

The girl(erm kinda obvious due to what lah)

I think of her everyday,
Just hopin one day she'd say.
The fateful words of magic,
That can change thy very self.

When she is alight I will be too,
When not I do my best to cheer her up.
I love the way she gives me a smile or two,
The way we talk like old friends, over a cup.

I pray to God we will be more than friends,
That at least we will continue as friends.
I don't know how to make the first move,
I leave all to Him, to help me prove.

Yup, Yup ok enuff of embarassing poems... Hmm what else is there... Oh yeah went to Jae's party, pretty cool, had loads of fun, tho i didn't drink much, didn't smoke, didn't dance, as usual... haha, had fun teaching this girl... Charmain aka sharnz? how to play taitee properly and mahjong... Dun think she got it tho, she was pretty far gone in alcohol land :P Yeah and also met two old acquaintances from ACS(I)... Oh and also one from VJC, Eunice, forgot to ask for her number again... Oh well, she seems to like Jaes, that's good I gues... Hmm ok i'm running out of things to say, so i'll stop here. To all my friends, take care yeah. God bless.