Thursday, June 30, 2005

Time flies...

After a record breaking month of 5 days of MC, 4 Guard Duties and 3 Recovery duties, it's suddenly July! I mean, wow, where'd the time go (ok so it went to sleeping, stressing out due to incompetent 'soldiers', and draining of blood from blood-sucking... ... ... somethings...).

Anyhoo, after giving tuition today, I decided why not blog? And promptly came up with a list of reasons for and against(thus forcing me to end up blogging anyway). Not dwelling on the irony of that, the reasons are...
1.)Too damn lazy (yes it's a reason!)
2.)Need to do my Disciple book(oops I did it all at one go when I couldn't stop myself earlier this week)
3.)Need to read (Wasn't serious about this one...)
4.)Need to touch guitar (Am cradling my guitar right now... so, out of point)
5.)Want to play DOTA!!!!(Don't HAVE DOTA, enuff said)
6.)Need rest for parade tommorrow! (I'm watching the parade, not participating in it...)
7.)Want to surf the net (Erm, blogging IS surfing the net...)
8.)Want to chat with msn friends (Friends normally pang seh me online anyway... got loads of time in between)
9.)Nothing to blog about ( Well, you do now...)
Lastly the best reason!
10.)Blog also no one reply or read anyway (That's why blog lah)

So here I am :P

Hmm moving right along, was rushing the whole day away, after camp went to beach road, then went to have a haircut then went to give tuition.. whew... Kinda tiring rushing from one place to another... but at least I'm healthy compared to the miserable one week where my good friend wsn't in Singapore and I just stayed at home rotting and sleeping and did more rotting... Was miserable and lonely... So I practised the guitar till my fingertips bled(ain't joking)...

(I know I'm really disorganised, I know and don't really care, just typing what comes to mind)

The past month has been really sickening (pun intended). For the uninformed, I had 3 guard duties in the space of one week, and fell ill immediately after. Yet I tried to help out a little in the church by going for the Youth Worship team practice. After that, I had to treat a friend to a birthday lunch :P. Then on Sunday pushed myself to little sleep to prepare for Father's Day. Went to Church, went out with a few friends, then alas has an asthma attack(I couldn't even identify it as such... haven't had one since I was 8...) Went to a doctor, and got 2 days mc. Rotted at home like a log. Then on the second day had the mother of all headaches, couldn't even see the handle of my own bedroom door, another 2 days mc. Friday went back to camp, saturday had guard AGAIN, was so stressed i couldn't sleep on the sunday after, and fell sick again on monday(1 day MC) had some kind of gastric flu... Then after a recovery duty last night, it's today with all it's rush in preparation for tmr's SAF day.. whoopee doo... Please excuse me while i attempt not to fall sick again.... adios and God bless all...

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Guang Liang Tong Hua Lyrics

童话 by 光良

忘了有多久 再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了 是不是我又做错了什么
你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

你哭著对我说 童话里都是骗人的 我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后 我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里 你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里 幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

This is a fantastic song... the tune is addictive...

Mandrin lyrics


wang le you duo jiu
zai mei ting dao ni
dui wo shuo ni zui ai de gu shi
wo xiang le hen jiu
wo kai shi huang le
shi bu shi wo you zuo cuo le shen me

#
ni ku zhao dui wo shuo
tong hua li du shi pian ren de
wo bu ke neng shi ni de wang zi
ye xu ni bu hui dong
cong ni shuo ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le

*
wo yuan bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

Repeat # and *

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

wo hui bian cheng tong hua li
ni ai de na ge tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou
bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju

yi qi xie wo men de jie ju

meanin of the lyrics ( REAL VERSION )

I have forgotten how long was it,
Since I last heard you,
Telling me your favorite story,
I have been thinking for a very long time,
I’m beginning to feel paranoid,
Did I make any mistakes again?

#
You came and tell me with the tears in your eyes,
That fairytales are all lies,
It’s impossible for me to be your prince charming,
Maybe you will not understand,
After the moment when you said you loved me,
The stars in my sky, are beginning to shine and shimmer.

*
I’m willing to be, the angel you love,
In the fairytales,
Open my arms wide,
And let it become wings, to protect you,
You have to believe,
Believe that we will be like the fairytale,
With happiness and joy as the ending.

Everything is our beautiful ending.

Thursday, June 23, 2005

BGR

Was just thinking things over today... Didn't really have much to do other than just sit around and try to recover from my recent onslaught of illnesses... How can i say this without sounding sorry for myself?... Hmm, to put things simply, here I am, Bigger than most adults, old enough to be an adult in some countries, but still having no idea how dating works...

I'm going to be 20 soon enough, I'm 1.81m tall, and I don't even have to say my weight just for people to know I'm definitely heavier than most asian males. Yet, I've not known the difference detween going oout with a female friend, and dating. What exactly is a date? How do you make it obvious yet subtle that you're asking this certain person you like, that you want to date/court them? I mean in the Singaporean culture, it's kind of difficult to just state things boldly, yet a great deal of people don't correlate 'let's go out together' with 'I'm interested in you and I want to date you.' Is it really a blessing to be able to balance going out with both my male and female friends? I mean, I have no reason to shortchange either, since 'officially' I'm not attached and under no obligation to spend more time with either party...

Back to the topic at hand..., how do you just go about doin it? I know the two extremes pretty well, due the friends I have. The first of being a bachelor, and the second of having friends who have change bf/gf with almost the same frequency and reasons they buy a new set of underwear (cos it's embarrassing to get new ones in exchange for the old ones, until the old ones piss you off too much to ignore). I'm not really interested in either...

Unfortunately, I realise most of my female friends treat me like what the magazines call, the best 'gay' friend. Someone who is ok looking, won't embarrass them if they meet their friends, know won't come on to them strongly, and will be gentlemanly enough to foot the bill and all that stuff. (Yes I DO do all that, at least my parents taught me better, BUT I'm NOT GAY... Pigs.)

Haiz,... what to do? Each time I think about this topic or topics related to this, my self-confidence just takes a veritable nosedive into the marianna trench... I don't even know what I want, maybe that's part of the problem? I'm thankful for the girls who keep telling me, don't worry, you'll find someone someday, then I'd go home and laugh at the irony...(if you don't get the irony, well that's just too bad).

On a sidenote, I've finally sent out my University applications to Flinders University and University of Queensland. If all goes well I should receive an acceptance letter... If not then well, God may have other plans for me... Just see how it goes...

On watching Anger management, i realised a funny thing (ok funny to me), the psycholist said this, "There are two kinds of angry people, explosive and implosive. The explosive types are the ones you see at the petrol kiosk yelling at the cashier all the time, the implosive types are the ones that take flak all the time then SHOOTS everybody in the kiosk. You're the cashier." And I go and think... Yup that I am ...

hmm a long post... will post again some other day... Gott is mein hirst, mir wird ich mein geln :)

Monday, June 20, 2005

D I S C

PERSONALITY PROFILE ANALYSIS ON MR SHAUN LAI

Self Image

Mr Lai is careful and conservative in his behavioural style and rarely offends others intentioanlly. He is diplomatic and is often willing to compromise in order to meet the needs of others and achieve his team's goals. However, Mr Lai can be a stickler for system and order and by nature, will enforce procedure, policy and rules. There is a tendency for him to be conservetive and traditional in approach.

Mr Lai is very careful and tends to be a perfectionist in decision making due to his natural striving to get things exactly right. He is painstaking and accurate in all he does, paying a great deal of attention to detail.

Mr Lai has an inbuilt dislike for antagonism and confrontation. In his direction of others, Mr Lai is extremely dependable and will rely heavily on the facts and proven precedent.

Not normally explosive or easily triggered, he can bear a grudge and, whilst forgiving, Mr Lai does not necessarily forget.

The ideal work environment should include accomplishing tasks with others in situations where accuracy and concentrating on detail is vital. He not only sets very high standads, but also is very demanding and critical in ensuring that they are met.

Authority should be vested in Mr Lai's expertise and skills. The overall tendency is towards perfectionism.

Self motivation
Mr Lai prefers to lead others and to work in a structured, orderly environment and enjoys being part of a team of professionals and experts. He will seek the opportunity to extend knowledge in oprder to specialise, gain unique skills, power and the respect of others.

Job Emphasis
Specialist, professioanl or technical skills


Mr Lai prefers to work with people of similiar intellect, discipline, background or expertise in a structured, well defined work environment.

His behavioural style would reflect someone who takes time and trouble to ensure that very high standars are met and maintained by himself and his colleagues.

Describing Words
Accurate, precise, adaptable, detailed, sceptical, inquisitive, probing, systematic, logical, deliberate, analytial, suspicious, reflective, non-antagonistic, asks "how" and "why".

Behaviour in the Work Situation

In order to be successful in the work situation, Mr Lai does not modify his behaviour at all, and his work characteristics follow exactly the same pattern as those shown in the self image.

Mr Lai does not normally attempt to create any work "mask", but always allows you to see him as he sees himself.

Behaviour under Pressure

Compared with the self-image, there are some slight changes in characteristics when Mr Lai finds himself under pressure. He becomes marginally more communicative and sociable in pressure situations in an attempt to win his way.

It should, however, be noted that this will not bring about any major change in his natural characteristics.

General Comments

Stress
There are no stresses showing in Mr Lai's profile, which leads us to believe that he feels he can cope with the behavioural characteristics required within the job.

Motivators

Mr Lai is motivated by being given explanations, precise work details and ensuring that no sudden or abrupt changes take place which may cause Mr Lai to have to change direction. It is also important to give him reassurance and make him fel that his accomplishments are worthwhile.

Ideally, the manager wll be a democratic leader who takes time to explain the exact job/task requirement to a person, crosses all the T's and dots and the I's before expecting him to do the job.
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

sigh...

The first day i finish my attachment and go back to my original camp, and it's also the day i get so pissed i'm ready to chew bullets. I mean, c'mon, can't people get it into their dense skulls that we need to work TOGETHER in order to accompluish things quickly and painlessly? I mean, dammit, does the simple logic of TEAMWORK never occur in the peasized membrane they call a brain? Ok, maybe being in a choir has taught all the MDC people the neccesity and common-sense, of teamwork and civility. While being in a balls eat balls environment makes all those 'soldiers' with skulls the thickness of the Berlin wall believe, looking out for their own interests is the only law they abide to. And because of this chinanery, servicing that could be done in 1 hr takes 2, cleaning up so we can all fall out and go HOME, lasts till 6 instead of till 5.30pm. Then they have the intelligence to order others to do their dirty work while they stand around chit chatting, then complain that they always finish late everyday. You know what? I wish they'd just get a freaking idea... probably the reason why their brain needs 'Berlin wall' separation from the normal world. It a complete vacuum in there... 7hrs and already i wish i were back having a STRESSFUL day in MDC.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Bored and pissed



just doin this for fun.. not in the mood to blog actually... so yeah... add me if u want...