Mobilisation

Haizzzzz, there's a mobilisation this weekend for my camp..., mean si can't realy make much plans... oh well, nvm...

khay:thx for helping e check my email..., sry to bother ya so often..
jas: hope u do well for ur 'A's man, the lava lamps are great, thx again
nat: i will remember the ball pump
to val, isabella and xx whom i noe never come, unless hell maybe freezes over: ganbatte for 'A's too.. yosh!

In other news, I've gotten re-addicted to gunbound thanks (or no thanks) to pris... Plus the fact that i stay at home every night with nothing to do. Now you church people know why I never mind you asking me to do stuff on weekday nights. Ah well, life of an undesirable NSman. Heh, end up being an old guy playing gb -.-...

Wanna watch 'The Incredibles', need some light entertainment tt's sorely lacking in my life. Anyone care to watch it with me? Should be free... If i'm lucky.. sigh...

This post kinda lame, will post in future when i HAVE something to post abt.

BTW, Happy B'day Hern Ping, noe u'll never read this, I don't know why i bother, but end of day u still my cousin yeah? Pray to God you'll find ur proper path someday (hopefully soon). Pray that He will take care of you, especially that weak knee of urs, and tt God will provide. Finally 19 yeah... All the best, God bless...

Basketball

Heh, I'd nearly forgotten how much I like to play basketball, true I'm not a fantastic player like my cousin, or have oodles of talent like several of my church friends, or even a decade of experience, another church friend. But, I really like the sport cos sometimes the goal is so easy to achieve yet so difficult... And everything depends on teamwork most of the time. To me teamwok isn't always about being able to use every player all the time, but more of... the right tool for the right job. Haha, getting things done is fun :), can either, use fake, pass, dribble, force or tactics, or all of them together haha... Love it best when you know your friends so well, you know what to do and expect when I play with or against them.

Hope I can get another chance to play this much bball again in the near future. 6hrs on sat and 3 hrs today :) can't stop smiling

University

Sadly, for the past two days, my email and collegeboard account have been inaccesible... It's a real pain in the neck as i'm trying to apply to a few universities... For those who don't know what collegeboard.org is, it's a website where (if u apply) they keep an electronic record of your SAT I and II scores. I can't even show the universities that i've taken my SAT. With my email down i am also unable to send them queries of any kind... Right now i'm seriously pissed... Really need those two accounts. Haiz, anyone have idea of how to circumvent or at least know what's going on?

Welcome to my life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

By Simple Plan

Funeral

Heh, there was crying... a lot of crying... me being no exception to tt... I'm just happy my Grandma lived as a Christian and died with a smile on her face. Haiz, anyway, I should be back in s'pore on Sunday midnight..., that's the latest news i have. So... to yt: Sry i can't go church yah..., can't make it. Another week lah...
To the rest: I dun even know who comes here... regular basis or not... yeah... so this might be a lil redundant... Anyway, i've dried my tears, and geared myself for tmr..., for the church service and interring... Oh well... *sigh*

Update

So far, my flight has been postponed to tuesday due to complications... Haiz... whatever, i wonder howi'll plan my wkened... want to be with friends...

Pray By S.L.J

Pray for the one(s) who have been lost,
By Fire, Water, Earth or Wind,
Bond together kith and kin,

Pray for those who have moved on,
By Nature, Illness, Accident or Murder,
Bless them, a service render.

Pray for those who have passed Away,
Of Old Age, Heroism, Selflessness or Duty,
May God have mercy on them.

Pray for those who are the victims,
Of Terrorism, War, Hate or Cruelty,
Victims indeed of this reality.

Pray for everyone everywhere everytime,
For the neighbours, countrymen, friends and
strangers,
For the Man on the street, the boy at the corner,
the girl you dislike.
For the people you see on the television, the
actors, criminals, samaritans and foreigners
For the leaders of nations, countries,
communities, and bands.

Pray for your loved ones,
Love them always.


(In memory of Grandma Chia, my maternal
Grandmother who passed away today the 4th of
november 2004 at the age of 90, may God take
her and embrace her in His arms, as she
accepted Christ 20 years ago, was baptised and
lived as the most Christ-like person I have ever
known, Lord, your servant has gone to you, please
help those she left behind. I love her. In Jesus
name I pray. Amen.)

Haha, i finally cried...

I hate this.

Haiz. It never jus rains, it pours...In Vancouver, My Grandma died today. I'll be flying off on saturday to... I dunno, do everything I can. Although i seldom saw her, I loved her, a lot... She was the focal point of the maternal side of my family. For 60 years, she single handedly held the family together. When she moved to Vancouver, almost the whole Chia family moved there with her. Her strength of will, and determination to survive all the hardships I'd heard about. Especially when her husband, my grandpa, died abt 40 years ago. I hate this. I mean..., crap, one after another, the world just wants to see me thrown down, be hurt again and again... In a time of need I am always there, to help my sis, who's crying right now, to go to Vancouver, to soothe my Mom, who already left this morning. Inside, i feel like crying.. but the tears san't come... why?... Is it because i'm an unfeeling bastard? Is it because I believe I need to be strong for those who need me?... I so badly want to jus curl up into a ball and fall into a hole in my mind, where i'd either achieve stoicism or heck care anything and everything.

I'm leaving on saturday. If the mlitary won't give me leave, then i'll awol simple as tt. I really need a punching bag to hit right now... Or someone to talk to. Since the latter is the more difficult of the two to find..., guess i'll settle for the wall.. Knn