Sick

Sigh... after doing guard duty last night, i've fallen sick again... A lot of things were running through my head today... Why do people who should be happy feel sad? Myself included... Sometimes, I just want to enjoy myself, let myself feel free... Be a useless bum, drink if I wanted to, play if I wanted to... Yet, I can't change myself so easily... So many years of playing the big brother, the trustworthy friend, the dutiful son... It's become a second skin... Haigh, actually now that I think of it, I think it's jus the flu fooling around with my body's chemistry... Gargh, will post again when I'm well. Man, I feel miserable...