Hmm

I really should change blog sites... this has been here since 2004....

Ave Maria

Actually I prefer this version a bit more :P

Ave Maria

I'm missing the choir again...

IQ Test

Hmm was thinking about the IQ test the other day as I recently did an online one. As a result I found out a few things, have no idea how true they are, but *gasp* there they are on the internet! Haha ok from what I have been able to find out, by definition the average world IQ is supposed to be 100 (though there is a popular book out there [IQ and the Wealth of Nations] which has calculated it to be 90). Also according to trends research, the human IQ is to average at 82 by 2100, thank God I won't be alive...

At the top of the list for average IQ is actually Hongkong, with a score of 107. Followed closely behind by South Korea with 106, then Japan 105, THEN Taiwan and Singapore are tied at a score of 104.

What sort of blew my mind was that the average IQ of Canadians are supposed to be 97, and the average IQ of Americans is 98. This was completely unexpected to me. I'd expected canada to be higher, especially as Waterloo Ontario was recently named the World's Top Intelligent Community 2007 http://www.intelligentwaterloo.com/en/index.shtml


Oh well, I guess I'm one of the lucky ones... Scoring 145 on the IQ test... I scored terrible for the Logic and Visual Memory parts though... Oh well... Can't win them all...

Current mood

Frustration
Jealousy
Envy

Sigh....

Studying

How to study? I think it is safe to say I'm one of the worst students in the world... I can study for more than 26 hrs over three days for a single module and forget what felt like 60% of it before the midterm.

I'm sick of myself sometimes... sigh...

Why can't I find what I want to do? And why does it seem as though everything is so hard? I know I have talents, but they always seem so useless in light of life in general. Yes I can play music, not well enough to perform, good enuf to keep small grps of people entertained for 5 mins maybe. Yes I can play sports passably well, not well enough to be on any team, well enough to take part in a game. I'm smart, not smart enough to do well in school, but smart enough to learn fast...

ah well... back to studying.... ineffectually...

Pretty True

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

The Five Factor Personality Test

Jars of clay

Went to my friend's blog and saw she had posted a song by Jars of Clay. Not knowing the song, I listened to the song and read the lyrics.... and... sometimes I feel that way... so I'm jus gonna copy her post (pretty much) and put it here... I know it's pretty messy, but I just don't feel like tidying it up right now....
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Just in case, I will leave my things packed

So I can run away

I cannot trust these voices I don't have a line of prospects that can give some kind of peace

There is nothing left to cling to that can bring me sweet release

I have no fear of drowning

It's the breathing that's taking all this work

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?

What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

Empty spaces with shadows hit by streetlights

Warnings signs and weight of tired conversations

In the absence of a shoulder, in the abscess of a thief

On the brink of this destruction, on the eve of bittersweet

Now all the demons look like prophets and I'm living out

Every word they speak, every word they speak

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?

What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

Do you know what I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"?

What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

What I mean when I say, "I don't want to be alone"

Alone, alone, I don't want to be alone

I have no fear of drowning

It's the breathing that's taking all this work

Happy Halloween, or All Hallow's eve

i know i look ridiculous but oh well it's halloween... i wasn't the only one...