4.23am

It's now 4.23am and have spent the last 6 hours or so studying, I can't really remember when I started.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I know I'm not someone who is depressive. As in people who know me, know that I am smiling most of the time. Then why do I feel so melancholic or depressive at times? Do I have just cause or am I just stupid as I tell so many people. I don't know. I'm beginning to realize I don't know myself as well as I thought. Neither do I have any idea what people think of me or what image I give of myself. At least I know I am image conscious.

Sigh... Who am I to want to heal the ills of my friends, to comfort my friends, to save them? I can't even help myself, don't even know how to...

Who knows who I am? God only knows I'm sure, but He's definitely decided He's gonna keep His own counsel, and leave me in the dark. Year 14 of looking for who I am and failing...
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Who Am I by Casting Crowns

Verse:
Who am I? That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name, would care to feel my hurt,
Who am I? That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way, of my ever wondering heart,
Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are


CHORUS:
I am a flower quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean, a vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling, Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am,
I am Yours.


Verse 2:
Who am I? That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love, and watch me rise again,
Who am I? That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain, and calm the storm in me,
Not because of who I am, but because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done, but because of who You are