Update

So far, my flight has been postponed to tuesday due to complications... Haiz... whatever, i wonder howi'll plan my wkened... want to be with friends...

Pray By S.L.J

Pray for the one(s) who have been lost,
By Fire, Water, Earth or Wind,
Bond together kith and kin,

Pray for those who have moved on,
By Nature, Illness, Accident or Murder,
Bless them, a service render.

Pray for those who have passed Away,
Of Old Age, Heroism, Selflessness or Duty,
May God have mercy on them.

Pray for those who are the victims,
Of Terrorism, War, Hate or Cruelty,
Victims indeed of this reality.

Pray for everyone everywhere everytime,
For the neighbours, countrymen, friends and
strangers,
For the Man on the street, the boy at the corner,
the girl you dislike.
For the people you see on the television, the
actors, criminals, samaritans and foreigners
For the leaders of nations, countries,
communities, and bands.

Pray for your loved ones,
Love them always.


(In memory of Grandma Chia, my maternal
Grandmother who passed away today the 4th of
november 2004 at the age of 90, may God take
her and embrace her in His arms, as she
accepted Christ 20 years ago, was baptised and
lived as the most Christ-like person I have ever
known, Lord, your servant has gone to you, please
help those she left behind. I love her. In Jesus
name I pray. Amen.)

Haha, i finally cried...

I hate this.

Haiz. It never jus rains, it pours...In Vancouver, My Grandma died today. I'll be flying off on saturday to... I dunno, do everything I can. Although i seldom saw her, I loved her, a lot... She was the focal point of the maternal side of my family. For 60 years, she single handedly held the family together. When she moved to Vancouver, almost the whole Chia family moved there with her. Her strength of will, and determination to survive all the hardships I'd heard about. Especially when her husband, my grandpa, died abt 40 years ago. I hate this. I mean..., crap, one after another, the world just wants to see me thrown down, be hurt again and again... In a time of need I am always there, to help my sis, who's crying right now, to go to Vancouver, to soothe my Mom, who already left this morning. Inside, i feel like crying.. but the tears san't come... why?... Is it because i'm an unfeeling bastard? Is it because I believe I need to be strong for those who need me?... I so badly want to jus curl up into a ball and fall into a hole in my mind, where i'd either achieve stoicism or heck care anything and everything.

I'm leaving on saturday. If the mlitary won't give me leave, then i'll awol simple as tt. I really need a punching bag to hit right now... Or someone to talk to. Since the latter is the more difficult of the two to find..., guess i'll settle for the wall.. Knn