Lucas (my dog) would ask me to stay home and cuddle him more haha.

It's Christmas Eve here, and it's a madhouse of preparations. There are so many things going on it's pretty insane right now. And there's Lucas in the corner jus begging to be paid attention to haha. Oh Well, Here's a general well-wishing to one and all yeah.

Merry Christmas to one and all,
Whether you be Short or Tall,
May you be joyous in hopefelt day,
As we celebrate in Blessed way.

Round yon tree Ornament lie,
Pray thee to elicit a sigh,
As the smiles of carollers wreath the porch,
And the turkey starts to scorch.

Take care rest well,
and peace be unto you,
Control yourself as you smell,
The food you really want to chew.


Haha, happy holidays everyone. =D

Some random pics... shhhh

Lol I'm using my uncle's com and am now proceeding to upload some random pics i found in it haha...

One of my canadian cousins, pretty anot? Haha. This is my cousin Charlene

My uncles and aunt taking pic with the big man, have no idea how they got this shot.... Two dunno-who on the left, my Aunt Amy, The man, My Uncle Peter and Uncle Robert

Pictures from another cousin's wedding last year =D, this is my cousin Lynette, I know she's very chio haha
Her now husband, Ryan, honestly man, the most immature adult I know, smiley joker... Nice guy though... Lol my cousin's classmates and good friends, i know a few of them... My Aunt Angela, Her son, my cousin Carl, and my favourite dog in the world. Lucas!

My cousin Andrea, she's now a mom fo two with her husband Erik. The Hagmans!

And poor Lucas zonked out. Ok is all for nows. Till After Christmas!

Heh my subcoincious apparently..

Shaun, your subconscious mind is most preoccupied with issues around your friendships

On a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to your friendships. But it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about your relationships have been preoccupying your subconscious mind — leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.You may feel dissatisfied with your current circle of friends or conflicted about one of your closer friendships. Perhaps you long for more fulfilling connections, or wish that you found your friendships less draining, or more balanced. Or maybe you're so frustrated with your situation that you avoid the topic all together.Whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life — even if you don't feel aware of it.
However, you can learn easy ways to tap into your subconscious mind and discover the source of the issues that are preoccupying you.

Lol ever wonder if those pictures of heavy snow are real?

this is a pic of my uncle's place haha...

lol...

My blog got me thinking

Looking at the sheer length of my archives put my mind awandering. Browsing through my own blog, I can finally view myself objectively through my musings, as I would other people. I have grown a bit, and in some ways haven't changed at all. I am still the guy who is simply a friend to everyone, and in a sense, woefully unable to be boyfriend material. I am still the guy struggling to form my own identity. I am still the guy trying to forget the bad things.

I have changed in surprising ways though.

I am still just a friend to everyone, but I have sort of accepted that. I will likely never be the life of the party, the attractive person people gush about, the charismatic person everyone wants to know. But, I am the person who will in the quiet place, when someone feels lonely or inadequate, be there, to talk, or more importantly to listen. I know I am calming because I don't force people to become who I see them as, but realise them as who there are, and how I know they can further their potential. I am still the guy trying to find my his own identity, but instead of flailing about aimlessly, I planned a route, an experiment with my life, and asked God to lead the way. I don't try to forget bad things anymore, because I have a new perspective in life, every obstacle I have overcome is a badge of honor, of proof that God's faith in me was not wrong. I also sadly realize almost all the couples I wished well in the first few entries of my blog are no longer couples...(don't take this the wrong way, I am not gloating or anything, I just wish there was more to a relationship sometimes)

To those who didn't know, my oldest blog (this is my second blog) is on deviantart, my username was zero01 or zeroxion I can't remember which.

I'm currently looking at an entry I had on June 2nd 2004 and just realized how much of a foreshadowing they turned out to be. Pretty funny in a way I guess, that's how things start, with the small things you don't even notice yourself thinking. Then again, God is in the details, and small things add up.

Silversword and To kill a mockingbird, my two favourite books when I was younger. Not only because they were my literature texts, but because they both touched on the human condition.

I believe that two keys things have hampered the human potential for greatness. Namely, Violence and Fear. They feed and lead on to each other, creating a cycle that is simple, yet simply there. Sometimes I envision a snake eating it's own tail, (no not the great ring for Aes Sedai in Wheel of time Robert Jordan fans), when I think of those two. There are so many things to be fearful for/about. Other people's perception of you, losing something/someone precious, even of just the unknown. Also, many people mistake violence for courage in the face of fear. People fight because they think someone is trying to intimidate them, people fight because they think it makes them look brave, people fight because they are afraid.

But fear is not faced down with violence. Violence is also not courage. Courage is being afraid, yet acknowledging that fear, and doing what is right. Violence simply shunts away fear, not dealing with it, using violence over and over again to avoid it. Courage is seeing the bear, and drawing it's attention so your friend can run away, courage is being afraid for your own life, yet safeguarding another's.

Then like in Socrates' APOLOGY, I know myself I am not wise, nor courageous, but I seek knowledge, and do not claim to know all things or even be knowledgeable, I do know one thing for certain.

I am older, in my thoughts I have grown, and I still have far to go.

By popular demand lol,

here are some nonsense pics I've taken over the past few days.

Niagara falls again! (pretty old actually, jus haven't uploaded pics in a while)

A Rainbow for ppl like KM to admire haha

Can you find Jaesson's Fav Animal? Where's the squirrel?
Me fooling around in the wax museum, recognize the chair?

"All the cars cowered in awe as the heavens opened up!" lol, nah they're just parked
Ooh Cat aract, aka cat heat vision! (lol friend's cat so cute, say hi to Cookies and Cream!)
You think snow is good? This is slush, yucks

~I'm.... dreaming, of a whiiite, chrristmas!...~
The snow field, footprints in the endless snowfield.... ok not quite endless, and boot prints not footprints...

Snwoball fight! with erm... me myself and I, Irene left... as in never came... oh wells.

Yups so here are some nonsense pics.. enjoy, my next upload will be after the exams, at least 2 weeks time. Adios and say a prayer for me yeah...

2 step forward and 1 step back

After having two relatively good nights of sleep, I was woken up after a half hr's sleep by my very rowdy, very drunk roommates. Sigh, another sleepless night for me.Oh well... Decided not to waste my time, being grumpy, and decided to try some calculus mock exam questions. If I can do them while grumpy, half asleep and tired, I should be able to do them well during the actual exam. Ah well, all the best to me yeah.